Sir, thank you for taking the time to respond to this humble slave's question.  Your response is most appreciated.  I think my question was initiated by the fact that I have a great desire to be accepted for training and to become a Pleasure Slave on the fourth floor.  I am a very willing, very very eager, and a very compliant submissive.  I do not need to be told to do things twice.  I do it the first time, every time, and try to do everything in a way that will please my master.  I do not enjoy punishment, pain, disciplin, degradation, or humiliation.  So my efforts to please are to avoid those things.  I realize that in training I would have to be subjected to those things.  I would be willing to do that, because the desire to serve on the fourth floor is so great within me.  It is a burning desire.  A burning hunger that will only be quenched with Master's completions in and on me.  Because I am so eager and compliant, I had thought there would be other slaves out there like myself.  Eager to learn.  Eager to please.  I would take the time to learn everything in the manual before I ever went for training.  It would be my desire to impress the trainers with my knowledge of what is expected of me, my presentation, my willingness, my eagerness, my desire.  Again, hopefully during training, I would require very little pain or punishment.  Every task assigned to me during training I would attack with gusto.  I would assume any positions they put me in.  I would perform sexually any way they wanted me to.  A manual that is specifically designed for kink.com, or for women such as myself who know exactly what they want (in my case, to become a Pleasure Slave for the fourth floor), would serve to assist me to be a better slave candidate for acceptance.

Thank you again for your response, Sir.

Thank you Sir, for your response also.  My involvement in BDSM I am learning is rather limited, based on what I am learning from this site.  I live in a small city with a small active BDSM Community that I am not a big part of, by choice.  Many of my Masters are.  But I am a very shy, and private person, and my friends and family do not know about this kinky side of me.  I do not attend 'munches'.  There is a fetish social here periodically that I do dress up and attend once in a while.  However, when I do, I usually wear a sexy mask of one kind or another to help hide my identity, and I am always watchful for anyone I may see.  There is a heavy BDSM aspect to the socials, and while I don't join in, I do watch from the sidelines, wishing it was me on the St. Andrew's Cross or the pony bench or kneeling bench.  There is no sexual activity that takes place there in public, but there is some corporal punishment.  You mentioned being compliant out of fear of being punished.  That is not really it.  I am not compliant out of fear.  I am compliant because I genuinely want to serve and service my Masters and give them pleasure.  And I must admit, for me it is sexual.  I love the sexual aspects of it.  For me, I just do not enjoy pain, punishment, humiliation or degradation, which probably prohibits me from ever being accepted for training at TTOO.  Having said that, as I said previously, my desire to be a Pleasure Slave for The Fourth Floor is strong enough that I would definitely be willing to undergo the training as I have seen in the videos.  But I do readily admit, that part of it 'isn't my cup of tea'.  The sexual parts, yes.  The bondage parts, yes.  But hurting me, marking me, making me cry and break down, no those are not what I like.  Force me.  Take me.  Bind me.  Gag me.  Make me submit.  Make me perform Fellation, Cunnilingus, receive anal.  All those things.  But the pain, humiliation, degradation side is not a turn on to me.

In addition, because I am so private and cautious about my identity, I would have a problem with being video taped and it being made public.  If I could wear one of my masks or in some way have my identity hidden, great!  But I suspect that would not be permitted.  But I do want to be a Fourth Floor Pleasure Slave sooooo bad!  I want to serve and service sexually like I watched the slaves do in the video.  But I suspect my limitations and desire to be anonymous will prohibit me from ever being accepted, and that saddens me.  A lot.

I had proposed a modified French Maid uniform as standard attire for Fourth Floor Pleasure Slaves.  I thought it would provide a standard sexy and erotic presentation.  I also proposed the Slaves be referred to as numbers not names, and that each would wear a sexy mask to cover part of their face.  That was in part because I think that is sexy, and because I want to be anonymous myself.

Thank you again for responding to me and allowing me this opportunity to interact with you.  I will have to get my hands on the books you and Cobra have both suggested.

Your observations are most correct Sir.  I am indeed 'living in a closet' in terms of my privacy and my desire for it to remain so.  I had never thought I would ever even consider becoming involved in the 'porn' industry, other than having Masters taking pictures and videos of me while servicing them, and that has always been done with the understanding it would remain confidential.

So there are 2 issues I must come to terms with.  One is the issue of privacy and my willingness to let that go so that I may become a Pleasure Slave for the Fourth Floor.  I would have to accept that I would have to be willing to do video shoots at least for TTOO and during events on the Fourth Floor.  That is a big step for me and one I will have to deliberate on.  I have enjoyed my lifestyle so far, very much.  If I do go that level, I do risk friends, family and people I work with eventually seeing me in those videos.  Not sure how I would handle that, and how I would respond.  I am going to have to think long and hard about that decision.

The second issue is of course my aversion to pain, humiliation and degradation.  (Although my desire to serve and service is very very great.)  I think it is something I could learn to tolerate and handle, as a means to an end.  I am sure I would never enjoy that part of the lifestyle, but if it is what is necessary to be allowed to service sexually on The Fourth Floor, I would be willing to push myself, and accept that as a necessary requirement.  Of course, if I did not successfully complete the training, I would never be accepted for service on The Fourth Floor anyway.  So there is a very very high degree of incentive to work through that part of the training.

But all of this is for not, if I don't get accepted for training anyway.  I suppose the third issue for me is that where I live is quite far away from San Fransisco, and my ability to travel there is financially limited, and limited to the amount of time I may be able to take as holidays from work.  But that I think I can work through.

I have been thinking that in order to show my seriousness towards the goal of becoming a Pleasure Slave on The Fourth Floor, I should maybe do a video with some of my Masters here.  I could probably enlist 3 local Masters to put me through the paces much like is done for TTOO.  At any given time, 2 of the Masters could be working with me on camera, and the other could be filming.  I'm sure also a female Dom could be enlisted to prove my ability to serve and service a female Mistress as well.  And in this video, I could dress in the wardrobe proposal I have made, and could even still be somewhat anonymous, using the masks I mentioned previously.  The intention would be that this video would show my eagerness, my willingness, my sexual skills, my presentation, my body, and yes, even some pain, humiliation, and degradation tolerance.  The purpose of the video would simply be to earn the right to be accepted for training and to do a shoot for TTOO.  If the Masters did not like what they saw in my 'audition video', they would not accept me for training.  However, I am sure that the video I sent would prove to them my worthiness, and how I would eventually be an asset to them as a Pleasure Slave on the Fourth Floor.  And by that time, I would have had to make the decision to proceed and lose some of my privacy, and become a part of the 'porn industry' so to speak, and would have established my abilities on the pain, humiliation and degradation side of things, of which I am less fond.

So I have a couple of journeys ahead of me.  A journey of decisions, and acceptance to go deeper into the lifestyle, that would hopefully be followed with physical journeys to SanFransisco to begin training and to work as a Pleasure Slave on The Fourth Floor.

Thank you Sir (& Lisa) for helping me work through these issues, and point me in the direction I need to go.  Your time and thoughtfulness are very much appreciated by this humble and unworthy slave.